rebellious rocking.......................

hi friends....... now its time that i start my open dairy.. a life full adventures and rebellious... but my life is one to be said about n heard about... thts my style because i love it to say that way..i prefer saying than writing..i am very bad writer..that u will know through my post..but i just want to write because i wanna let things out of heart which i might not have done before....

i sit hear thinking what shall be my first post..i realize why not to post what i feel now.. sitting in the office cabin..checking will someone come and ask what are u doing..this is not to be done here..i would plainly reply if that's the problem then the hell to you and your office...now i am not supposed to do this.. i am terrible situation without this job what will i do..? what i reply to those who would question me why don't u stick to one-thing..then my simple answer i feel it and so i do it...yes i do feel the pain of what i say lost love..but yes i lost the person but the love..my passion for the person remains the same..yes we both could not go along..yes we could not compromise on things...but if me or she acted in other way the things would not be the way it is..but no one was ready to act different..whose fault mine..? her s..? there s no fault but plain answer comes heart..i would never shape myself different..yes i had a selfish feeling that i would be happy if she could shape my way..i am sure she also has the same thoughts..but wht to be done..?sit here n crib over it..or just move away with it..i say you both of them not possible..cant express both the feelings.i don't know how move people move along..but didn't i move along well after being away from loads of friends..indeed i moved along..but for one person why i am stuck back..do i expect the person to come..no i don't..but then what it stopping me..might be my love..or as someone say secretly desiring that person comes back..if its in my subconscious mind i say you i don't want the same person to be back but if the person can shape my way then i will be left thinking..but i don't expect anything of that sort happening...hmm as for as my job is concerned i am enjoying these new experiences.. but i am hating the way the whole TV industry runs..i don't feel to bring a change in it..but something i feel a change to be brought will be in mindset of the people..our society is being corrupt with the days going by..we are becoming more n more selfish with the competitive world..my dream project to have a real impact on the society is underway..i am trying to form a group of people with the same thoughts to come along and work for the student..i don't know how it is going to shape..i am just expecting it be the one to have a impact on many.....hmmm that's all in my mind for the moment being.. will be waiting for new post..till then bye bye tat-ta.....