journey...journey tht was unfaithful...

as i sit in the bus thinking 1000 thoughts on 1 issue..i decided to quit the place..i decided to have a change..i decided it is better to have strugglin life then struggling mentally...as i sit n call up my best friends..tht day left tears in their eyes too...but i made the desicion..i was down ..i was out..i was now trying to think new but i could not..time n again..i was getting tht girl in my mind..just thinkin come back to me..u meant alot to me..i still care for i love you.. my mind sayin think about urself..u are losing u are losing urself.. but i forgot i had lost myself..i lost in my will to live..but i just recollected the memories with my beloved..i knew i had a mountain to climb..my decision was bein criticized by many tht i was leaving like a loser..tht brought more agony to my existing one..but i wanted to start a new life..i spoke to my dearest mate vassu..n i said her i will return but not til i know i was out from this lost world..as i hung the phone..a guy i dont remeber his name just said hi..n said i heard ur decision..our interaction started n he said its always no end ..just go ahead n start a new life..as we kept on tlking about our childhood to our rebellious feelings..i found him to be very nearby to me who kept on debating to me about various things..as our bus stopped for the dinner everyone was movin out..i just sat down n thought i have limited money..i cant eat..because if i eat now wht abt tomo..i was now worried abt my tomo which helped me abit to our come my thoughts from lost love..then suddenly two girls i dont remeber their name.. they offered me their tiffin box..it was bajji..some sort of..now i had 3 unknown friends alongside me.. as we shared the box..they were sympathetic to my story which hurt me more but i didnt wanna hurt me..now everyone was back from the dinner..the man who was beside me later i came to know he was a police inspector gave a biscuit packet..i was amazed tht there are people to help..young chap who debated me offered my stay at his place but i politly declined as i wanted to live on my own fighting for my survival..n as the journey went ahead with new people i was getting comfortable..n at vijaywada all my companion or new unknown friends had to get down.. now i was back alone..again the thoughts of my trauma came back to me...i was trying to control my tears at a stage i just could not..then i thought again where n hou i was going to survive tomo.. tht thought gave me a meaning n diverted my mind..tht journey was 1 of the toughest journey of mine but i had no fear..because a day before i just wanted to die.. wanted to finish off..but tht journey reminds of many things..