a letter..to my grandpa.......

dear Sir,

it takes lot of guts and courage for me to write this letter.it is a strange life, strange world and strange people around but if it was NOT STRANGE the life would have been boring i assume. waiting for evening 7 o clock and that swinging chair with a glass of whiskey in his hand ,chechked from a room then rushing back i cam down to sit along the person to exchange few words.An egg and few snacks,my heart eager to have a boiled egg never able to express but always got it if not full ,a share from the persons plate. looking into those eyes, my ears engrossed to the persons words like a jealous wife spying to know her husbands affair from backdoor. yes i am referring to Kadir Zaman the person in the chair. One of the two person who has a huge impact on my life.the other being a professor, Moloy Goswami. Though the two has a very different style, characters and personalities if one was in seventies the other was in his late 30. But the only common thing in them was never backdown if you are on truth side.
still learning from the best of best in my last stages i lost. i lost to myself. i dont regret my loss. never did i regret on my things but i promised myself that i will learn from it. i being never a hardworker but engrossed with thoughts that would come to me. it was like an obssession for thinking. Thinking of new ideas ,thinking of life,thinking of love. I realized love is a strange component of human. people who have created history were always in love with something or the other. onle when love became obsession history was made. when Mahatma Gandhi took non-violence against violence ,the question of he being mad must have come in many but he didn't gave up because he was in love with the word FREEDOM. or you can say he was obsessed with the word FREEDOM.
Hitler was obbsessed with the word GERMAN POWER..and Julius Caesar was obbssesd with the word roman development..
they were all obsessed..but the right way is to select the right path for it.

as i move forward to take a piece of egg from the plate, i heard "YOU TOO,BRUTUS" ...this was my first time listening to those historical words..if Kadir Zaman would not shared this peice of knowledge i would still have been ignorant of one of the most significant happening of the history. As i went through the life of Julius Caesar with that my interest in history had grown.. now from town guy who never knew Fidel Castro now started to read about JFK, MUSSOLINI.LENIN AND OTHERS..which bring a significant development in my thinking. this would never happened if that person in the chair would not have been there.

I do not know where this history leads me in future. i do not know will my great grandsons will be able to recollect my name, its not in my hand. but choosing a path is in my hand and i have taken a decision. though failing in my decision time and again, i just decide to go with my instincts not thinking where i will be ending because life is to experience for me. i will be revealing what path i have chosen later because i do not will it be success or failure but i am going to try and this is my love or so my obsession will be.

Strange is this world and strange is the place i lived. the same house i met another charming person but quite different from the other. a person who knows how to care and balance his family perfectly. though might be in trouble time still be able keep a smile on his face and make sure his family and his people are secure. and strange is their relationship though being two different characteristic people they share a perfect bonding between them.
Those two live a two different paths of life but bond together beautifully. If one has both the qualities i am sure he will be having perfect life.but as saying goes GOD WAS TOO SELFISH TO MAKE ANYTHING PERFECT IN WORLD.

But people have to take decision which way one would like to take. i could have easily taken the common man route but i didn't.
i went against norms to make better norms. now time will say will i be right or wrong in my vision. if i am failure i m sure people gonna curse me or if i click people gonna appreciate me. i have decided that none is gonna affect me i would love to go along trying to make a differnece in others life with knowledge i will be acquiring which started from progressively when i met the person in the chair with a whiskey in hand

MY QUEST FOR KNOWLEDGE WILL NEVER END AS I WOULD EVEN LIKE TO QUESTION GOD